30 Days in The Desert?

30 Days in The Desert?


    So, for the last eight weeks I have been struggling! After some horrible situations happened at the Easter Vigil at my parish I choose, along with three other members, to resign from the parish council. I just no longer felt comfortable continuing to drive a mission to be a more welcoming and inviting parish if the decision makers were not also on board. 

    The choice to leave the council was easy. What is hard is trying to decide to stay at this parish, or move on to another one. My nature is to be a fixer. I keep thinking I am not done here... I can do more... I can fix this. But is that a calling from the Lord to help fix this parish or is it just my fixing nature?

    I had a sit down (and ice cream) with a dear friend who is a sister. She knows of the situation and she knows me at my best and worst. She suggested to me that I take time to be still and heal. To spend time in the desert, and learn to forgive even though an apology will never be given. To take the time to build my relationship with the Lord, and not worry my heart with fixing a parish that isn't ready to move in a positive direction. To just be still!

    So, tomorrow will start that time in the desert for me. I am hoping to post daily on my journey. I am sure this will not be easy. Moving away from what is common for you never is. But I think I really do need this time to heal and be in a place where I can make the choice of what to do next with open eyes and a healed heart. 

    If you have words of wisdom, scripture that has helped you though tough situations, anything at all you want to offer, I will gladly receive it!

Blessings Always,

Shaunnessy

    

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